My Favorite Outfit

So, to start off, I'm making a fashion post of one of my absolute favorite outfits. I've had it for years and LOVE wearing it when it's just too hot outside, or in the club, or wherever I happen to be.

 

This Photo was taken by Stephen Winchester of The Image Studio

I am by no means a professional model, I just happened to be at the right place, at the right time, dressed up in the proper outfit. Which is why I fully believe it is important to make a statement with the clothes you're wearing. You never know who might come along, and want to take your picture.

As I said, this is my all time favorite outfit. Sadly it is also a very expensive outfit. In total the whole thing cost around probably $250-300, but when broken down and bought in pieces it's really not that bad.

The Pants and Top (which is actually a belt) were purchased at a traders shop in Sechelt, B.C. I also bought the same pants and top in red at the same time. When I bought them they were quite expensive, but last Halloween they were being sold by the dozen at costume and Adult Shops for about $10 to $15 (I probably got ripped off, but that's okay because they are a VERY high quality. I spent around $50 on each.)

As far as I know they only come in one size, but the elastic bands around the top and ankles of the pants are very stretchy and the pants are quite long, which is nice. I will say though, they make a LOT of noise. Even in the most crowded, loud bar, I can hear myself jingle when I walk, which I think is part of the fun.

I got these boots YEARS ago for graduation at the local goth store, Which has unfortunately shut down since then, but they are made by Demonia, and VERY easy to find pretty much anywhere.

They are expensive, I think I paid around $120, and they were on sale at the time. However, like I said I've had them forever and they are VERY comfortable. I'm proud to say I've climbed tree's in these boots, more than once, just for fun.

They're kind of annoying because they DON'T have a zipper so you have to undo all 8 buckles on each boot to get them on and off, but they look fantastic, and it's totally worth it. I really recommend them, or really anything by Demonia. They are a fantastic company.

This is a better shot of the top (again the photo is professionally done by Stephen at The Image Studio). Now, using this belt as a top Will not work for everybody. I'm very thin and have a tiny chest, so it does work for me without showing too much off. Again, the bells make a lot of noise, so if you don't like noise I don't know what to tell you.

It most certainly is an eye catching outfit, I really don't mind people looking at me or calling rude things out, because that's just what happens when you're out in the main sea of public. I've gotten more compliments on this outfit that insults, so I think it works out.

If you like it I would definitely recommend checking out local costume or adult shops, or even places that sell Dance outfits.

Oh almost forgot, the tights were bought at Arden's for something like $5. They're cheap, they tear and stretch really easy, but that's okay because I buy new tights and leggings all the time anyway. I don't mind replacing them when I need too.

Hope you enjoyed this post as much as I enjoyed writing it! See you again soon with my next article!

I'm your Doll

I’m your doll...
Please, don’t break me
But your words,
They shatter me just the same
I’m your doll...
Please, don’t leave me
But I’m cast aside,
You hurt me just the same

Just a doll… Leave me for dead
Just a doll… No emotions left
Just a doll… Tell me what I see
Just a doll… Pretend that I can’t feel

Your smile was once granted
So I waited for you
Rotting in this tomb
Still a doll
I’ll stay the same
You count on this
Believing you...
Your empty promises

Just a doll… Leave me for dead
Just a doll… No emotions left
Just a doll… Tell me what I see
Just a doll… Pretend that I can’t feel

My body…Cracked and broken
My heart… Non-existent
My spirit… Torn away
Running on empty
But I’ll love you just the same

>.< Dear god I suck :(

The Gate Keepers

"The words of the tongue should have three gatekeepers."

-Arab proverb

Before words get past the lips, the first gatekeeper asks, "Is this true?" That stops a lot of traffic
immediately. But if the words get past the first gatekeeper, there is a second who asks, "Is it kind?" And for those words that qualify here too, the last gatekeeper asks, "Is it necessary?"

With these three on guard, most of us would find very little to say. Here I think it is necessary to make exceptions in the interests of good company and let the third gatekeeper look the other way now and then. After all, a certain amount of pleasant conversation is part of the artistry of living. But the first two gatekeepers should always be on duty.

It is so easy to say something at the expense of another for the purpose of enhancing our own image. But such remarks - irresistible as they may be - serve only to fatten our egos and agitate others. We should be so fearful of hurting people that even if a clever remark is rushing off our tongue, we can barricade the gate. We should be able to swallow our cleverness rather than hurt someone. Better to say something banal but harmless than to be clever at someone else's expense.

~This post is from
~Eknath Easwaran's book' Words to Live By'

Independently Happy

A brief bout with a razorblade cut me
I freaked out, thinking people didn't love me
I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me
In letting go, I am so proud of what I've done

I'm. So. Proud. Of. What. I've. Done.
Now. Forget. You. Ever. Mattered.

Yeah, I'm really clean if you know what I mean
Except for this recurring dream
Of losing total feeling
While the windmill's squealing
The windmill's squealing

I paint to kill the dead saints
I paint to make it clear
My colors run in blue and gray
But they give hope to someone dear

Give. Hope. To. Me. Now.
Paint. A. Picture. With. Blood. For. Me. Now.
Show. Me. What. I. Mean. Now.

Why do you come here, why?
Aren't you moving on to someone new
Can't you face the facts, no sense in going back
You can't erase or take the things of all the things I lack

Of. All. The. Things. I. Lack.
I. Can. Do. This. Too.
Moving. On. To. Someone. New.

When I had you
When your love would pull me through
When nights were long
When your love would make me strong
When time, regretful to say, in the gentlest way over you
Maybe I should follow your lead and turn as is it never meant a thing to me

Like. And. Hate. And. All. The. Things. You. Say. To. Me.
Turn. Away. I'll. Follow. Your. Lead.
Wish. You. Didn't Mean. A. Thing. To. Me.

I drive to the edge of my considerate plain.
I apologize to the people I hurt on the way.
I wipe the slate clean.
I kick the daydream,
And remain independently happy.

I'm. Finally. Happy. Happy.
Independently. Happy.

So paint that picture for me now
Even if it doesn't mean a thing to you now
hate me like you did before now?
Did I hate you like before
like you needed me too
is it all my fault
Did I leave and move on and do I hate you like I did before now?

Just a bunch of lyrics thrown together into a poem-ish thing...

Call it Off

I won't regret saying this
This thing
That I'm saying
Is it better than
Keeping my mouth shut
That goes without saying
Call, break it off
Call, break my own heart
Maybe I would have been
Something you'd be good at
Maybe you would have been
Something I'd be good at
But now we'll never know
I won't be sad
But in case
I'll go there
Everyday,
To make myself feel bad
There's a chance
I'll start to wonder
If this was the thing to do
I won't be out long
But I still think it better if
You take your time
Coming over here
I think that's for the best
Call, break it off
Call, break my own heart
Maybe I would have been
Something you'd be good at
Maybe you would have been
Something I'd be good at
But now
We'll never know
I won't be sad
But in case
I'll go there
Everyday,
To make myself feel bad
There's a chance
I'll start to wonder
If this was the thing to do
I'll start to wonder

If this was the thing to do